Why hello there!

Hi guys, it’s been a sweet min hasn’t it! Don’t think I’ve written a blog post chemo! Not for any reason in particular, more for the fact, I’ve been pretty busy and pretty lazy on the writing front ha.

Anyway!! Yes chemo, it’s been ‘alright’… I wouldn’t say it’s been the highlight of my life but it’s not been terrible. I have had 4 cycles so far.. so that’s 12 weeks!

Side effects: EXTREME fatigue (god that’s been a killer, just the feeling that your whole body is a dead weight and just not having a single ounce of energy to even pick up your cuppa, or move for the remote, seriously that’s hard), mouth ulcers/blisters, red pee, slightly bad skin, in my first cycle I experienced awful diarrhoea, I genuinely must have shit out most of my insides, surprised an organ didn’t push its way out it was that intense haha but that settled…

…and then the obvious big side effect to most.. Hair Loss! The delight of not having to shave my armpits or my legs has been mega and completely taken my showering routine to a minimal…

However the biggie, the head hair loss… it hasn’t actually been THAT bad, I decided to shave mine after my second cycle, it had started coming out in clumps and in all honesty, it was doing my fucking head in, hair everywhere… in my bed, in my nicks, Indie found it in her toes, I was like a malting dog! So it wasn’t the concept of me wanting to take control, it was to soothe my anger 😂. But being bald has its advantages and disadvantages! Don’t get me wrong, I don’t go walking out bald, I’m not that secure about the whole thing yet.. maybe that will come in time, but I do love the head scarf look and to be honest, I’m rocking it!

My main loss and has upset me the most has been my eyelashes!!! Do you know how different and ‘ill’ you look without any lashes! But oh well, suppose it all comes with the job of it making me better! Although I’d quite like some energy soon plz chemo.

OH and recent scan results show that it’s keeping me STABLE! So all worth it. FUCK YOU CANCER, you sneaky bastard. I’m coming for ya!   

Rach x