To my Daughter

The reason I originally started my blog was actually quite selfish... I did it as it gave me some kind of emotional release that I so desperately needed, it felt like a kind of therapy, then my vibe shifted and I wanted to do it to help others and raise Sarcoma Awareness and then I also thought that whether I live 5 years or 50 years it will be a heart warming thing for my family and friends to look back on, read & laugh (at times) and remember me by (soz I know talking about this shit upsets some of you, but it is reality, although I’ll def outlive most of you 😉)...

So, this ones for you my Indie (also known as my little munch, sweetheart, popsicle, Indie Pops)... I’ll keep it short and sweet because I know Nana won’t have many tissues left after this week...

I never ever dreamed I’d be so lucky to have a daughter like you. You honestly bring so much happiness to my life that I don’t know what I would do without you. You are my little sunshine. I don’t think (especially after I’d first been diagnosed) that I’d be able to get out of bed every morning without seeing your little face and knowing you were there to keep me going. It really is true when they say that a daughter is your best friend.

You may look the spit of your daddy but you most definitely have your cheeky personality and bloody stubbornness from your mama. I feel so so blessed to have you in my life and I will do everything I can to stay in your life for as long as I can (because although I know your daddy is more than capable, he has the most awful dress sense and you don’t need that in your teenage years 😂😂... also I know how terrible I was as a teenager and you’ll turn him very grey very quickly haha).

I have no idea when I’ll be brave enough to have the conversation with you and tell you mummy has cancer, but I know that you will take everything in your stride and be the strong, beautifully courageous girl that we have raised.

Thank you for being YOU and being my little firecracker. You will never truly know how much you’ve helped me and how much I love you with all my heart, always have and always will. I hope I make you as proud as you make me little munch.

Forever yours, mummy.

(Now, please go to bed because you’re driving me insane 😂😂😂)