My Voice of Reason

‘A mother is your first friend, your best friend and your forever friend’

I’ve contemplated writing this blog for a while now and whether I should share any of this with you all, but then I thought, it’s my blog, I’ll write whatever I want and you can all bloody read it 😂 and I definitely wouldn’t be able to do any of this without her... so why not!

When you become a mum yourself, you know the constant worry and stress your kids bring on a daily basis and how you would move the earth and sun to make sure they’re ok. Can you imagine your child being diagnosed with matesastic cancer and how you would feel then? I can’t. My mum is an angel sent from heaven and I’m so proud that she’s mine.

When I got diagnosed the only thing I could say to my family was ‘I’m sorry’. I couldn’t imagine how it must feel for them all and I felt SO guilty that I was causing them so much heartache and I wished/still wish I could take it all away from them. It’s not just yourself who is affected by cancer, it’s everyone, and it’s bloody hard. The emotions you go through, every hour are intense and everyday is a new day with new feelings.

I first had my operation on my stomach tumour in October. My mum took time off work to help me and Indie. She washed my hair, she put face masks on me, she made me dinner, she did everything you think a ‘mum’ would do, but it was just so much more than that. Since then, she has gone above and beyond to make my life easier and I honestly don’t think I will ever be able to thank her enough for getting me through/still getting me through this journey.

She stays up at night to make sure I can sleep and I’m not on my own when I can’t. She’s bought me every type of skin care/shampoo/chocolate bars/nuts/smoothies/juicers/cards/notebooks & inspirational morning quotes you can possibly imagine to try help me in anyway she can. She juggles her own emotions but always always puts mine first and makes sure I’m ok. She endlessly adores Indie (even when she’s being a diva 🤪) and makes sure she’s happy and is just the best Nana she/I could ever ask for. I know she runs on empty a lot but she never shows it and always puts on that spread for me when I get there and has a cuppa at the ready (even when I have to drink it cold because of radiotherapy 😂). She gives me a foot rub and a pamper every week and I just can’t even put into words how many times she’s wiped my tears and made it all ok.

I’m not saying that no one else has helped me get through this, there’s a long list of my amazing family and friends who I couldn’t do this without, but there’s just such a special bond with your mum and I don’t think I’ll ever be able to tell you how much I need her and always will.

So this one is dedicated to you mama (I know you’ll be reading)... thank you for being my advice giver, my story teller, my hand holder, my partner in crime, my shopping buddy, my nerve calmer, my problem solver, my doctor, my cheerleader and most importantly my best friend. I love you! ❤️

We’re in this together girl.